not quite silence in the
gentle hum of early afternoon
but maybe something softer than
the screams of crows

something more human than the
room of hanged men

and how many years now since
my last escape?

how many hours wasted staring into
dirty mirrors or
through warped panes of glass?

what i see is that at
some point in the future i will be
asking my son for forgiveness

at some point
i will speak of my own father
for the last time

will spit out his ashes while
faceless men in the towns i’ve escaped from
beat their wives and girlfriends with
the brutal fists of love

and one half of the truth
is that i never saved anyone
and the other half
is that i never knew anyone who wanted to be saved

i had nothing better to offer than
the holes that had already
been dug

this is history on a personal level

the possibility of failure
through indifference

of love turning to hate
and then hatred to suicide

and if my mother sheds any tears
over the sudden holes that
appear in her life
i make a point of looking away

if desperate acts of violents leave
any visible scars on the
ones left behind
i don’t want to know

i have already
made up my mind to run

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