The house was a gift—picture perfect weekend luxury on the lake. From their three daughters. They were all doing well, money wasn’t a hurdle, and they wanted to show their parents a good time.
Just relax.
Sit on the dock.
Hold hands, the oldest adds.
They’d become concerned.
In the cathedral-ceiling living room, the fireplace rose in a striking arrangement of natural stone. An island as big as a pickup truck filled the kitchen. Everything was fully stocked. He looks for the coffee maker. She checks for milk. Next a master suite with glass doors to a private deck, the bathroom crowd-sized with walk-in shower, tub with jets, warming towel bars, a heated floor. Upstairs a second-floor balcony overlooks the living room and out to the glittering lake through the two-story window wall. They pause to look without speaking. They stand several inches apart.
More bedrooms, bathrooms, balconies overlooking the lake. Every piece of furniture was hand-crafted, surfaces polished to a finish like clear water. A dream house from some dream life.
* * *
The ping pong table in the walkout basement brings them to a standstill.
She rests her fingers on the scuffed green top. Do you remember?
He crosses to the table. Two paddles with blue rubber-nibbed faces rest on opposite ends of the table, the ball tucked under the nearest.
You used to win, he says, picking up the paddle.
Only at first.
He smiles, shakes his head, remembering. He picks up the paddle wagging it back and forth.
She circles the table. The panorama of the lake is framed in glass doors behind her. She picks up the other paddle.
Lovely hands. Even now, he thinks she has lovely hands.
He picks up the ball, hollow, feeling fragile as a blown egg.
Shall we give it a try?
Now she smiles.
I don’t know if I can—it’s been too long.
He laughs. Very carefully he taps the ball to her. She catches it in her hand and holds it a moment, staring down at it. Then taps it back with equal care. He moves to return it. It goes over his paddle and bounces across the floor.
A little rusty, he says, returning to his side. She moves slightly, shifting foot to foot.
Ready?
As though tapping glass, he serves. Stepping sideways she taps it back. His smile broadens. This time his paddle finds the ball, returns it.
It’s a moment of triumph. Look what they have done! She returns it.
The sound takes on a natural tick tock rhythm.
They focus on keeping the rhythm, the mutual cadence of pass and return. They concentrate, hitting the ball so it is an easy pass for the other to return. Some go wide, and they step quickly reaching out. It is coming back to them.
Serious now, both smiling, almost holding their breath.
It has been so long. So much has come between.
They concentrate.
They keep it going.
Michael Horton
Michael has worked as a bookmobile librarian, McDonald’s shift manager, factory worker in a rubber parts plant, prep cook, men’s dormitory janitor, purchasing agent, and IT guy—but writing is what he does. His work has appeared in the Alaska Quarterly Review, Glimmer Train, and Raleigh Review, among others. Stories were nominated for “Best of the Net” and Pushcart Prize. He is an alumnus of the Sewanee Writers Conference, where he learned from the remarkable Tony Earley and Alice McDermott.
If you were there, you surely would have noticed the scarlet slash cleaving the soft brown fuzz. Her roly-poly-curved shrunken shape. White sheets, once crisp, now softened by sweat. Darkened room illuminated regularly for blood draws, IV exchanges.
You would have heard her on the phone. Do you have avocados? Maybe bring one of those. And toast? Black beans too, those might work. Oh, a wheat tortilla and some grilled chicken. I can make a little taco. Maybe a bite of that will stay down. Ice cream, too, please, sometimes that’s okay. Something cold to drink – maybe Pepsi? No, Sprite.
Then, turning to me, “Can you believe it? My mom and sisters took my daughter. They were supposed to pick up pizza, bring it back here to eat with me. That would have been nice, right? They just texted that they are coming later, after they’ve finished eating. Why couldn’t they just eat here with me? Now I’m starving, and it may be too late to be able to hold anything down. That’s not nice of them, is it?”
You would have witnessed a woman arriving with a stack of cards. “You’ve got lots to do, Sis. I planned for all the birthdays, the graduations, even their weddings.” Maybe you would have recognized appropriation disguised as altruism.
You likely would have noted the numbers scattered throughout her questions. Will I be here 2 months from now? Can you believe the nurses have to wear gowns and gloves to hand me this 1 little pill? What should I tell my 3 children? Do you think they realize I may only have 14 days to live?
You never would have noticed:
A scar, mollified by years, a kind of cleavage under my blouse
Me alone in the bed, my family out for burgers
Suppressed shame that I was unable to write letters to my kids like the dying mom on Oprah
The newspaper clipping shared by a friend – a grief camp for kids with dead parents
My own numbers: 2 weeks to live; 12 previous cases, all diagnosed by autopsy; 3 major surgeries and dozens of procedures; 25 bonus years
An infant son learning to walk in my hospital room
His younger sister, not even arrived by that hospital room but present for all the following ones with the new scars and new guilt and new hope and new joy
You may have noticed me grab her hand, look into her eyes, whisper, “I’m here.”
Amy Agape
Amy Agape, PhD, provides spiritual companionship to hospitalized individuals and their families. This work, rooted in her own experience with a rare illness, invites her to listen deeply to others’ stories and explore the ways they interweave with her own. Amy dreams of a world where all people experience the profound blessing of being companioned with loving presence. She intends to spend the remainder of her days helping to create that world.
The annual Perv Circus celebrated its first decade with a huge bash at the Grand Palace Hotel. Nobody could have brought it off with more panache or bigger profits than Charlie Pinkhaus, known to his entourage as “The Founder.” Charlie knew hundreds of the right sort of people for his Circus: men and women who were loaded with liquid cash; troubled enough to need nearly constant stimulation; and unlikely to blow the whistle on the dark shenanigans he orchestrated, every June, within the private chambers of his own hotel chain’s flagship location. The Grand Palace Hotel was a maze of dark walnut panels twenty-two feet high. Most of the walls were crowded with canvasses, photographs in frames, textiles, tiles, and objects somebody had insisted were art, so they were.
Senators and bankers, writers and high fashion people, actors and sex workers—every sort from every part of the world eventually hit the Perv Circus. One night drew two astronomers and a veterinarian. And lonesome Charlie’s favorite: a recently civilized barbarian.
Jamey Hecht
Jamey Hecht, PhD, PsyD, LMFT, is a psychoanalyst in private practice in Brooklyn, NY. His two poetry books to date are Limousine, Midnight Blue: Fifty Frames from the Zapruder Film (Red Hen Press, 2009), and Dodo Feathers: Poems 1989-2019 (IPB, 2019). His other three books are about Plato, Sophocles, and Homer. Hecht’s poems, fiction, and scholarship have appeared in two dozen periodicals, including American Short Fiction, Black Warrior Review, Massachusetts Review, Arion, Rattle, The Pinch, English Literary History, The 16th Century Journal, American Imago, and the Journal of the American Psychoanalytic Association. jameyhechtauthor.com
Steve Deutsch is the poetry editor of Centered Magazine and was the first poet in residence at the Bellefonte Art Museum. He has been nominated for the Pushcart Prize and the Best of the Net Prize multiple times. He has six volumes of Poetry. One, Brooklyn, won the Sinclair Poetry Prize.
Kyle Selley draws with explosive residue. Explosions and their indexical marks are naturally celestial, producing tactile residue that echoes stellar formations. Across scales, he’s found patterns of residual dust, energy radiating outward, order surfacing through chaos, and fractals emerging. Combustible material inscribes scale-invariant traces. He guides it, but this medium expands mark-making beyond what his hand can do. There’s tension between control and volatile chance, between what he intends and what the material insists on. Chaos theory and emergence theory describe principles that govern supernovae and fireworks alike. The work collapses cosmic distances to a human scale, making stellar nebulae accessible for close investigation—residue as primary content. Selley reframes the explosion as contemplative echoes rather than spectacle. What was cosmic becomes intimate. The viewer sits inches from what resembles light-years, examining the same dust and patterns that govern stellar birth.
Featuring: Issue 117, published January 2026, features works of poetry, flash fiction, short nonfiction, and visual art by Amy Agape, Lizbeth Bárcena, Joan E. Bauer, Tetman Callis, June Chua, Carlos Cunha, Steven Deutsch, John Dorroh, DM Frech, Avital Gad-Cykman, Jamey Hecht, Richard Holinger, Michael Horton, Dotty LeMieux, Priscilla Long, Grace Lynn, Robert Miner, Jim Ross, Fabio Sassi, Kyle Selley, Sarah Sorensen, Kimm Brockett Stammen, Billie Jean Stratton, Michelle Strausbaugh, Emma Sywyj, Cindy Wheeler, Holly Willis, Francine Witte, Holly Redell Witte, and Alina Zollfrank.
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