Carlin Steere

I stole your handwriting:

 

Dear Elsie,

I know it’s been a while since we last connected. It’s been at least 12 years now, bar the occasional Instagram like or Christmas card from your mother. I have something to confess. You might have caught on in the fourth grade — and maybe that is the real reason why we stopped sending letters to each other after you moved away to Virginia — but I spent nine whole months attempting to copy your style of handwriting.

Maybe it was jealousy. It was definitely jealousy. What nine-year-old wouldn’t be jealous of the classmate that consistently wins drawing contests for litter clean-up and yearbook covers? Maybe one that had grown up with siblings, but that wasn’t me.

In February of fourth grade, you went through a phase where you’d dot all of your i’s with teeny-tiny hearts. It was novel — brilliant, even. I’d never seen such a spectacle and I was beside myself. What could I do to match your artistry? I tried smiley faces. I tried tiny stars. Nothing seemed to click. Thankfully, that phase was short-lived, but the two weeks it lasted made “free-write time” a waking nightmare.

For a good, long while, I relished every compliment. I had made your handwriting my own. I had earned those compliments. When I reached young adulthood, the mask started to slip. After all, I hadn’t really developed my own handwriting. I believed that I was living a lie… but then I thought about it for two seconds and realized that at that point in my life, the way I wrote was going to be my script for the rest of my life. I was past the point of developing fine motor skills — so, why should I care if I copied your handwriting in elementary school. It’s not like we’re going to sit next to each other in Ms. Kelly’s dusty, air condition-less room ever again.

In short: I stole your handwriting. It’s mine now. It’s kind of like a squatter’s rights situation we have going on here. And because I don’t know what yours looks like at this point in our lives, I’m assuming you can’t get your old script back. Maybe it looks even more polished now, or maybe you picked up cursive.

You might be a calligrapher or a sign artist at Trader Joe’s. I have no real way of knowing based on your social media presence, but I sincerely hope you’re doing well. Your Our My handwriting has served me well. Thank you.

All my love.

Carlin Steere

 

Carlin Steere

Carlin Steere is an experimental personal essayist and poet, dividing her time between the New England shoreline and Tampa, Florida. Her work has been published by Yale News, Sweet: A Literary Confection, and the Exeter Green Words Poetry Anthology — among other publications.

Hannah Voteur

Snail Funeral

 

Between tulip and ryegrass

there is a freshly dug grave

I might be five, or four

black soil beneath my fingernails

loss in the hollows of my footprints

 

Its viscous body is buried in a bottle cap coffin

offered to the earth under flower beds

opalescent snail shells fragmented between toes

and left to heal beneath swollen mounds

 

Two weeks later

after my eyes have dried

and my feet have been rinsed clean

I pry it open again in commiserate sunlight

just to see if heaven is real

 

Because I am five

and God is far

but I hope

not so far for a snail

 

Hannah Voteur

Hannah (she/her) is a writer, poet, and editor currently working in publishing in NYC as an operations associate. She has loved fiction and stories for as long as she can remember, particularly gothic and evocative literary pieces. She earned her Master’s in Linguistics from Boston University in 2022 and her Master’s in English Language and Literature from the University of Sheffield in 2023. When she doesn’t have her nose in a book, she is most likely baking lemon bars, daydreaming about moving into a cat-friendly apartment, or seeking out new hole-in-the-wall bookstores in her neighborhood.

P. J. Szemanczky

Returning Home, Teachers

 

Dying swamp trees are irregularly spaced

by lynx’s cry answered indifferently well,

resigning itself to a natural Providence:

self-satisfied. It filled a belly with wild mice

several times more vigilant than dying trees,

clicking beneath with cricket frogs throats;

occasional ‘shrills’ at yellow unicorn mush-

room caps that appear to flutter somberly.

 

From a parked wagon a boy is shouting

at dogs out of hunting cages breaking free:

fall fragrant nostrils lighting a first sojourn

event: pairs of oval rhombic blotches

freed in homely patterns of loosestrife &

stripe brown rhythmic leaps pointing back

to inconspicuous silky, odd-waving origins.

 

Each rushing game in Ithaca stuck together.

Each knew that that funnel squeezed

nutrients out of stingy places. Seeds or

wood sticks, evidently, fed hungry rituals

meditating over oversounds of carcasses

spreading seed plants, risen to dominance.

Furious chases to scrap flesh fresh-cut,

(both human & animal) gifts shrewdest

for brain volume prospects in hostile years

of climate extremes followed by grayness.

 

Lastly, fierce cold nights left half have learnt

broken trunks cut gale winds, diminishingly.

Even chiming catkin thickets wave no oath

of range alarms to a lynx curled in a pocket

for breeding, nearby aquatic rodent tracks

which barely shake as hind feet webbed and

larger than forefeet: scramble; too, too late!

Winter’s last lash spoils all instruction heard

in the wrecked confines of pitied burrows.

 

J. Szemanczky

J. Szemanczky is the author of Metaphysically Yours, Immaterially Mine; The Apocalyx Angels of Earth Evolution; and Synthelytic Spacetime Motion, all f/l poetry collections. A member of the CT Poetry Society and formerly of the Maryland Poetry Society, he retired as an ABE/GED CT high school-equivalency teacher and master gouache landscape expressionist painter, guiding hundreds of students to graduate successfully with CT-GED diplomas through his classes. His paintings, along with his poems, essays, and news articles, can be found on the internet, published in Soundings East, The Ravens Perch, Sone Poetry Quarterly, Balance Magazine, Pace Literary Magazine, The Providence Cowl, and many other journals, as well as on “PSC-The Front Page” website* (2009-2013*) where he served as a weekly contributing columnist, editor, interviewer, and cinematographer of Tri-States-NYC Island Metro Productions L.I., NY.

Sayantani Roy

The edges of the day by Sayantani Roy

The edges of the day

Goan winter by Sayantani Roy

Goan winter

Cormorants at dusk by Sayantani Roy

Cormorants at dusk

 

Sayantani Roy

Sayantani Roy works out of the Seattle area. Her photography and haiga appear in Rappahannock Review and Contemporary Haibun Online.

Shyla Shehan

Because the moon is moving away

 

from Earth 1.5 inches each year

I know someday this will all be over.

 

The churning of the tide will soften

as her reliable waxing and waning

 

disappears. Infinite gravity governs

absolutely. Each action yields equal

 

and opposite reactions causing continents

to shift. Tectonic plates push and pull

 

their godlike weight in tug-of-war.

I agree to a road trip with my daughter.

 

She says there’s a place she trusts

to get the job done right. The notion

 

of getting a second earlobe piercing

makes me wince. To put my faith

 

in a stranger’s hands feels like an act

that goes against nature. My body

 

is void of ink. I haven’t ever gathered

fortitude enough for that commitment.

 

Nothing lasts a lifetime.

School. Friendships. Lovers.

 

Houses. Cars. Careers. Plates shift

inch by inch, seasons change.

 

Impermanence has become

a permanent fixture of my faith,

 

trusted as the sunrise each day.

But my daughter has also become

 

a trusted friend. Engaging in this act

of exposition honors that, however small

 

a show of hope that what has been born

of my body and raised by my hand

 

can withstand natural forces of change.

When the needle goes through my ear

 

that brief pinch of pain, I’ll say a prayer

to the moon.

 

Please don’t leave.

 

Shyla Shehan

Shyla Ann Shehan is an analytical Virgo from the US Midwest. She holds an MFA from the University of Nebraska, where she received an Academy of American Poets Prize. Her work has been featured in The Pinch, Moon City Review, Midwest Quarterly, Anti-Heroin Chic, Drunk Monkeys, and elsewhere, and her poetry has been nominated for the Pushcart Prize and Best of the Net. She is the co-founder and curator of The Good Life Review and lives in Omaha. For more, please visit shylashehan.com.