January 2014 | back-issues, poetry
Curing/Coddling
I tell you, I’ve had a poem brewing in my head
And you say, oh really
And maybe I detect your disinterest, but maybe I don’t
Either way, I don’t care if you don’t care
I continue
The words have been churning away, I say
And you nod, yeah that’s cool
Too preoccupied by the TV and waves of conversation
Tides coming in, fluctuating volumes of voices
Yes, sure, you reassure
I’m listening, go ahead, keep talking
But I guess it doesn’t really matter
About that pin I found buried under papers
Whether it truly is an artifact of Hispanic culture
Or just another manufactured stand-in
Courtesy of the America we know and love
I confess, I epitomize myself
Plucking up Corn Pops from a thrift store cup
Sipping at Tylenol like it’s a candy-covered elixir
Only to shadow grasp
Stare down my red-eyed Savior
I tell you, My words feel too stiff
No matter how much the tendrils of spring
Twine ‘round my ankles, drowning this February
Or how many slips of birth control pills I swallow
Or how often I watch my blue-tailed betta swim
Or how long a bucket of carnations sits in the corner by the sink
Too many sensations, I say
Sometimes add up to not much at all
And you gift a glance
And you masquerade around my self-proclaimed doctrine
You are so deep, you promise like a mother
I re-cross my legs
The matter is done and I want coffee
You agree, but wait a moment
Maybe your wallet is thinning
Maybe it’s empty
by Sarah Lucille Marchant
Devilish Daydream
I fool myself into thinking I’m flattering
the hipster boy in the second row
by shamelessly ogling his knit hat
and imagining my fingers tracing his tattoos.
Blinking, counting down sleep, my lips
at his cheekbones, neck, collarbone.
Black tea paints my throat,
preparing.
Polite-faced
I stroll through day-space, a blot of
color, an awkward stumble down the stairs,
plucking music measures
and privately planting them
in other people’s heads.
Rub my eyes, shut
the door, lay out your
thoughts in the
fiercest whisper.
by Sarah Lucille Marchant
January 2014 | back-issues, poetry
In the twilight the rain
is like silk threads.
Its beauty is deceptive.
Snow has piled up
like mounds of salt.
My bed is suddenly cold.
I’m unable to sleep.
All night I hear ice crack
on the roof and in the eaves.
Wind chaotically blows
the last of fall’s leaves.
The birds have long
since departed. Alone,
I reach for the light.
But I can no longer write.
Who writes poetry anyway?
Young men with
unreal dreams and old
fools like me,
with nothing left to say.
by George Freek
George Freek is a poet/playwright living in Illinois. His poems have recently appeared in ‘The Missing Slate’; ‘Torrid Literature’; ‘Bone Parade’; ‘Hamilton Stone Review’; ‘The Oklahoma Review’; ‘The Poydras Review’; and ‘The Empirical Review’. His plays are published by Playscripts, Inc.; Havescripts; Independent Playwrights; and Lazy Bee Scripts (UK).
January 2014 | back-issues, fiction
The fish is staring at me from the plate, its blackened skin and brittle tail spread between rice pilaf and sautéed mushrooms. A foot of omega-3 fatty acids, which my mother, who set the plate before me, said helps with depression.
I wasn’t depressed last winter when I hugged the possibility I might be pregnant, wrapping my heart around the secret, envisioning my baby tadpole-size clinging to the side of my uterus, our blood intermingling. Brian’s baby. There was a bridal shop down the street from my apartment; I already knew the dress I wanted. But then I wasn’t pregnant after all and Brian told me he’d met someone else.
At night I drank and wept, working up a Camille-like tragic image. During the day, I sniffled at my desk until co-workers rolled their eyes when I reached for another tissue. Then, in early April, a bunch of us got let go.
When I couldn’t find a job, my mother said she’d moved her sewing stuff out of my old room and I was welcome to it. So, I’m back home with this damn fish, my mother eyeing me across the table, and my father hunched over his food like a wolf with a fresh kill. Who wouldn’t be depressed?
The fish doesn’t want to be here. Once it shimmered in fast moving water. It might have been pregnant with hundreds of luminous eggs. How can I eat it when, like me, all it wanted was to have babies? I try to explain this to my mother, but she can’t get past the sex part.
by Anna Peerbolt
Anna Peerbolt’s flash and short stories have appeared in Drunken Boat, Prick of the Spindle, Apollo’s Lyre, The Legendary, Long Story Short, DOGZPLOT, and elsewhere online.
January 2014 | back-issues, poetry
An Unknown Prophet’s Complaint Regarding
the Tardiness of the Messiah (c. 200 B.C.)
The milk has soured. The honey? Gone.
The widow’s oil has all run out.
The glory that you promised us
left in the night like Pharaoh’s son
while we ate bitter herbs.
When we took wives and lay with them
you punished us because their blood
Was Philistine, but what grave sin
Did we commit that you would send
This storm of hollow rain?
You carved your name into our hearts,
Like boys will do in sycamore,
But wood is scarce, and that tree limb
And all our swords became the tools
We use to scratch the earth.
If sacrifice began again
And blood and flesh were placed upon
The holy fire, would all that smoke
Climb Jacob’s stairs to only find
That you had locked the door?
“How long, O Lord?” the prophets ask,
But we have lost all track of time.
Instead of days, we measure life
By promises left unfulfilled
And wounds that cannot heal.
So take your time deciding how
You’ll save us all—a flood, a fire,
A brimstone rain—and while we wait
Perhaps we’ll find just what it is
That we need saving from.
by Jason Leslie Rogers
Woodpecker
I stand with an unfocused stare
at the ground and the bleeding bird,
surprised by my aim and the weight
of the gun pulling down my right arm,
surprised by the woman who runs
from the porch at the front of her house.
I saw you she says through the tears
in her throat as she points at my feet
where the woodpecker lies.
I saw you she says looking down
at her wrinkled bare feet
through a gap in her pale spotted hands.
I saw you she says looking up
at the hole in the pine tree
the red-crested father had bored
while she listened and watched and
smiled through the first weeks of spring.
I retreat to a home full of ignorant faces,
to a lunch of sweet tea and the cold
meat of birds, while deep in some pastoral
hell the bleats of unseen lambs echo
and King David remembers Bathsheba.
by Jason Leslie Rogers
The Rain Comes
Inside your four walls,
the first rumble sounds
and you ask those nearby
if they heard it too.
Out of doors, if you have the gift,
there’s a smell, a thickness
in the air, just before
it hits the ground around you.
Inside, alone, the white noise
pulls words from your mouth,
“Here it comes,”
you say in hindsight.
Outside, the cold droplets
move toward your planted feet.
Like locusts, they’ll bring change
To everything they touch.
by Jason Leslie Rogers
Jason Leslie Rogers lives in southeast Tennessee with his wife and daughter. He will graduate in December 2013 with a B.S. in Liberal Studies, writing and literature emphasis, from Lee University. He has not previously been unpublished.
