July 2014 | back-issues, poetry
Here’s to staying up late
and watching Pulp Fiction
instead of staying up late
because your mind is cycling with stress.
Here’s to eating the best
oven pizza you’ve ever had
after days of not being able
to keep food down.
Here’s to harsh cigarettes
and a longneck lighter
on a metal table
while winds howl at the moon.
It’s talking about it
so you don’t need to drink about it.
Knowing and being known is
saying “fuck” instead of pretend smiling.
It’s being touched without jumping,
and unbraiding and fading
with heavy eyelids
that can safely close.
It’s not about waking up,
it’s about falling back asleep
after a glance to ensure
not everyone disappears.
Hearing one person say,
“You aren’t as dark as I thought.”
Hearing another person say
that they pray for you
and hearing yourself say;
“I’m not a whore.”
Here’s to all that.
That’s what today is.
Amanda Ramirez
July 2014 | back-issues, poetry
GHOST PLANE
FOR HELIOS AIRWAYS FLIGHT 522
Logic unhinges. Hallucinations
shuffle down the isles. A stray laugh
rises. Oxygen masks are little more
than decoys; we keep them strapped
to our cheeks, but can’t recall why.
Children hush, turn a dull blue.
Pilots slump across the controls
like scarecrows. The first nervous
dozen are luckiest, but after hours
of circling, we all quiet. Some swoon,
mutter as if gripped by nightmares.
A flight attendant breaches the cockpit
just as the engine is choked by flames.
Does he pant his last breath into a bank
of blinking lights, or meet the mountain’s
grey gaze? Do wildflowers flow down
the slope like a braid over a bare
shoulder? And does he reach out
to touch it, run it through
shaking, mortal fingers?
MASTER BIRDMAN
An aeroplane in the hands of Lincoln Beachey is poetry.
– Orville Wright
Stockings roll down; hair is unpinned.
Slim digits slip into my flying gloves,
cradle a helmet perfumed by hair tonic.
I draw gasps but slink out at daybreak.
Air’s the absolute, bears both gulls
and my crude craft, “a beat-up orange
crate.” Air wordlessly waits, its vastness
a dare, a glove swatted at my cheek.
So I must glide updrafts, plummet
to graze the ground with one fingertip.
The body submits, but it’s bloody, bones
heavier than hollow. So, it must breach
like a birth, sputter into a final spiral.
They’ll say I drowned, that it took hours
to fish me out by the suit I always wore
to fly. But they’ll do worse, grasping
the bars of a hospital bed, gulping
pudding from a plastic spoon. Better
to perform an aerial spin, misjudge
and get what they always expected—
swallow jellyfish and krill, midwifed
into blackness by silent, damp beasts.
WEIGHT OF THE WORLD
IN THE VOICE OF A MINOR DIETY
Feet wrapped in grave-gauze, I hunch to suck ink
off newspaper corners. So, tell me—war is spreading;
the latest madman pumped the morning full of bullets;
the ocean laps the toes of the Rockies. I used to float,
barely break a blade when I crossed the lawn, the choir’s
harmonies like bellows, a child’s sleeping chest. Then
I shrunk to a shadow, words an untidy clump of yarn
in my mouth. Pass the latest screen and light me from
below like a ghost story; give me the artless and brief,
no epics to draw up earthworms like a thunderstorm.
You’ve stuck too many grubby, doubting digits in my
direction. I’ll enter with the beggars, virgin-hungry
as a volcano; but I’d stop all this ill wishing, scanning
the horizon for quaking, if you’d just dig a coin from
your pocket, flick it, tenderly, down the storm drain.
by Luiza Flynn-Goodlett
Luiza Flynn-Goodlett migrated to the Bay Area, after completion of her MFA at The New School. She was awarded the Andrea Klein Willison Prize for Poetry upon graduation from Sarah Lawrence College. Her work has appeared in numerous literary journals, including Oberon Poetry, Meridian, Lumina, CALYX Journal, and Prism Review. She recently completed her first book, Congress of Mud.
July 2014 | back-issues, poetry
I am reading secrets of yellow
tomato plants, studying life-lines
on their leaf-shaped palms.
Home from school the neighbor boy leans
over the fence. Asks about my day.
I’d tell him I found a lump
under my skin. I think it will end me.
Like a fly on meat
it’s hatched its eggs.
I’d tell him how my husband knew
a year ago, my mother three
decades before that.
I’d tell him but we’re done
talking. He hangs a thick arm
over the chain-linked fence.
Last week we admired our shadows
over cardboard guns held together
with rubber bands and silver
tape. He told me he’s an artist—
that sometimes he watches me
from his kitchen window.
I want to say that I’m an artist too
but the arrangement has turned
somehow, fast like a fire, or slow
like a leaf.
Tamra Carraher
Tamra Carraher has published two books of poems and illustrations for children titled PICTURE/BOOK and Bluefish Haiku and is currently exhibiting line drawings of poems at Bahdeebahdu in Philadelphia. Her poetry has been featured in the online literary journal Toe Good Poetry. She received an MFA from New England College in January 2014 and has worked as an Associate Editor for the Naugatuck River Review.
July 2014 | back-issues, poetry
I: Ascription
i ascribe meaning to moments
you: to dice and bones and chance
what did the tea leaves say this morning?
lies are coincident to actuality—
the bees are disappearing
do you take yours
with cream or sugar?
one scoop
or two?
II: i prayed a Novena
i prayed a Novena
you don’t come around much
anymore
squirrels are the least interesting
creatures in the yard.
i spend so much time waiting
water boils
the phone rings
the postman comes and goes
everything happens eventually,
says the praying mantis,
hungrily
III: Jicama stick salads
winter beaches
frozen sunset
ice chimes
tea, watered down more than it is already
cancer-survivor relatives
seekers of good fortune (read: lost change)
cinnamon jicama stick salads with maple syrup
and rye whiskey; French pressed coffee
cereal for dinner
midnight; spring-time shower trysts
walking. home—not a place, but
fingers grasping fingers
IV: on poems written in the middle of the night
he said, don’t
read too much
into all this
i’ll tell you
when you
need to know
most times,
i just like the way
the words sound together
C. L. Carol
C.L. Carol tries to be a good human. But, humans being humans, he’s known to fall short, stumble into a local haunt and spend time ruminating. Sometimes he writes. More often, he thinks. Diane Wakoski once likened one of his poems to Yeats, but the poem is lost and the story has now been relegated to fable. He lives in Northern Michigan with his wife, Emily, and their daughter, Berkleigh. Companion to cats. Friendly gentleman. Terrible golfer.
July 2014 | back-issues, poetry
In dreams or in sweaty moments driving, the classroom—
clarity spins away like water carving out a canyon.
I do not know when mind sinks into past crevasses
if it is Rumpelstiltskin padding down the dark hall
outside my room, or Captain Hook who will play
forbidden games.
These ill spirits are not poured from a bottle.
The hands sliding like serpents under the covers
are not healing. I go away and become a new
born, sleek baby seal swimming in arctic
waters with my mother. I nurse at her nipple,
the milk fat, hot, thick, nourishing, as she
protects me from those who would fill me.
This is the ocean womb, where I can take refuge
in shadowed canyons, hidden, watery valleys.
Safe from those who take away my blanket,
Nazis with lugers aimed at my being, panzer
hands driving their muddy tracks over my body.
Corrupted beyond their concentration minds,
deeper into shadow’s valley, I go to earth’s
heart beneath salvation’s waves.
This is the secret place that I prepare.
Here I will grow big, grow strong.
Here I will prepare for reckoning’s resurrection.
Here I will build the russet fire.
Here I will eat the hearts of men.
Ralph Monday
Ralph Monday is an Associate Professor of English at Roane State Community College in Harriman, TN., where he teaches composition, literature, and creative writing courses. In fall 2013 he had poems published in The New Plains Review, New Liberties Review, Fiction Week Literary Review, and was represented as the featured poet with 12 poems in the December issue of Poetry Repairs. In winter 2014 he had poems published in Dead Snakes. Summer 2014 will see a poem in Contemporary Poetry: An Anthology of Best Present Day Poems. His work has appeared in publications such as The Phoenix, Bitter Creek Review, Full of Crow, Impressions, Kookamonga Square, Deep Waters, Jacket Magazine, The New Plains Review, New Liberties Review, Crack the Spine, The Camel Saloon, Dead Snakes, Pyrokinection, and Poetry Repairs. Poet of the week May, 2014 Poetry Super Highway. Forthcoming: Poems in Blood Moon Rising. His first book, Empty Houses and American Renditions will be published by Hen House Press in Fall 2014.
July 2014 | back-issues, poetry
i.
Raise a flag, cast a glance,
and it’s all over now.
ii.
It was me. I triggered the mechanism
that cut off my own hands.
iii.
When I had the chance,
I should have kissed her
with conviction.
Should’ve slipped her poems
on folded paper,
the sweat from my palm
still lingering on the creases.
Should’ve bought her flowers
or some similarly obscene gesture.
Or left vivid lipstick prints
in the soft angle of her breast.
iv.
If I’d known that was a singular moment,
I would have devoured her –
no question,
no hesitation blooming
like a tumor.
A fish-eye gaze on that basement room,
the only two people in existence.
v.
Even though your ignorance was not permission,
your silence not a gesture inside,
I smuggled her heart for a little while.
And your heart may burn with love for her,
but my touch left her scorched through the skin
so deeply the marks cannot be washed away.
Sarah Marchant
