October 2012 | back-issues, poetry
Goodbye sound of sliding screen door, and the look of your skin under those lights, dainty and dangling overhead, blues fading green and soon, or at least I thought, soon—you’d come waltzing out to that song we always play, always sing, always saying remember this one, and take from me the last I have to give.
Goodbye sweat-born ache, small apartment smelling of iridescence, and goodbye hand on my chest, slap across my face, kiss on the lips when I ask for one on the cheek.
Goodbye, goodbye, like a hymn, something slipped from the side of my mouth as I’m pretending not to watch you change. Nothing explicit, no nudity or pale revealing under shaky lamps. No, I’m often with my fingers before my eyes, you’re half spread just beyond me, like we’re dancing two separate edges of the night.
Go on now, pull closed the window, check the locks tight, until morning there’s only cool reflections across the pavement; go on now, good night, ease under your sheets, keeping time like a train station, and soon there’s only secrets left floating, a journey out of sync, I hear you whispering one step ahead of me,
Soon you’ll be calling to ask where are you now? Soon there’ll be nothing to explain, to mumble; nothing to slip beneath the cracked door.
Goodbye back stairs, natural curve as we pressed our mistakes together; goodbye look in your eye, sting of poison, shaved ice and two fingers vodka in a rocks glass.
Goodbye, soft call into the empty night;
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye—
by Douglas Sullivan
Douglas has returned to the West, after years exploring the South and Northeast coasts. Besides a Bachelor’s degree in English, his experiences range from managing a boutique coffee shop to fitness video production. He prefers not to be in one state for too long, and maintains a keen respect for accuracy of statement. He has recent fiction publications in: Crime Factory Magazine, Sleet Magazine, and with Vagabondage Press.
October 2012 | back-issues, poetry
A Heart After Childhood
Grainy snaps show her circled by smiles,
sons and local spirits, with ample hoist
through the hot effulgence of summer light.
Photos did no justice to her knotted neurons.
She quit childhood too early with a heart
like an empty sack. A girl, she abjured thought
of her future, as short on time as expected.
A photo cache weighted forgotten albums.
Marriage scarred her edges: her dissonance,
her children entertained her. So often weather
lilted curls, muted voice, or silenced evening wings.
History in song and pictures passed around her.
After barren years, she saw better how
things should have gone, but she did not act:
new generations grew smiles amid the old.
All around her bore the pall of somber fate.
She sulked. She raised intolerance in status.
She bored her friends, off center of respect.
At last, she lined her walls with mollusk shells
sent her to excite the hollow breath of song
and sat alone until her body in disuse ached.
She wanted much more, but pretended less.
Until she dies, this account is unauthorized.
by Keith Moul
Painted Face
Like a planet in a cold orbit, rarely
did he need the sun. Stay on course,
rotate at an awful pace, shed your ice
into the unlived silence of black space.
He fished catfish to see them dangle
helpless on a line. Waste their fish souls,
eat them panfried, wash them down with beer.
At private moments, with his lover in his arms,
he dreamed punishments for enemies.
Pile them on a heap, take your spoils,
mark your face with battle blood you won.
Passing within a whisper of home he did not hear.
Coming into old territory, he did not veer.
Leaving his mark on bushes, he felt gods in stars.
Steal children in pairs, in ritual gag them, then watch.
by Keith Moul
Rebellion Takes Up Conspiracy With Mankind
Howard Thomas had grown engagingly human.
He nurtured Harry S. Truman, his heretical cat.
Howard, who had many, often invited
friends to visit him for bracing conversation
about what it meant to be engagingly human.
Howard provoked his friends to act feline;
occasionally, his friends engaged with claws.
More than ten feline friends are hard to herd.
But Howard rationalized that his humanity
could resist even the bloodshed of rebellion,
that as long as his friends stayed in his parlor
and did not spread their cat insurrection outside
the rest of Mankind would embrace their differences.
Harry S. knew better. Harry S. would have preferred
that his instincts led the cat skirmish, from atop a cabinet,
a favorite place. Harry S.Truman got exact terms
he wanted when human rebellion
took up conspiracy with Mankind.
Afterwards, Howard came to believe
that humanity will not be engaged
nor be well served by soothing purrs.
As a hermit, Howard expanded
the biography of notable cats.
Harry S sought other comforts.
by Keith Moul
Keith’s poems have been published widely for almost 45 years. Recently two chaps have been released: The Grammar of Mind (2010) from Blue & Yellow Dog Press and Beautiful Agitation (2012) from Red Ochre Press. He also publishes photos widely. In fact, in 2010 a poem written to accompany one of his photographs was a Pushcart nominee.
