July 2014 | back-issues, fiction
No Good Deed
He might have been twenty-five, or fifty. His face was so dirty it was impossible to tell.
Mayra first saw him picking through a pile of litter near her dormitory. His purposeful search stopped with the discovery of a half-eaten cheeseburger. Horrified, Mayra watched the burger travel from the grass to the man’s mouth and disappear in two bites.
Her friend Lauren, a social-work major, said, “That’s Big Bill. Shelters don’t take him because he’s usually drunk, but he’s harmless.”
He’s still a person with dignity, thought Mayra, who tried hard to see the spiritual beauty in everyone. She gave him a ten. He thanked her.
“You’re just enabling him,” Lauren rebuked.
“But someone’s got to help.”
And she did, organizing a benefit concert and convincing the university to hire Bill as a janitor. When Bill stepped into the entrance of his new apartment, reporters were there to capture the moment. Conscious of the spotlight, he examined the secondhand furniture and full pantry with stoic gratitude.
Mayra chose to major in journalism after reading the feature article and deciding she could do better. A year later she won an internship at the local newspaper.
She interviewed Bill and discovered he was homeless again and unemployed. His breath reeked of vodka. She choked back her heartbreak, filed the story, and resolved to forget.
Two days later, she received an email.
Thank you so much for writing about Bill Arnolds. I’ve been searching for him for years. He’s my son.
Guilt
“Joe, get rid of that gum! You’re goin’ to church!”
Joe extracted the pink blob and smashed it into the coin slot of the parking meter, then ran to catch up with his mother.
His older sister Maggie scolded him. “That was nasty. God will get you for that.”
During Mass, Father Mayhew opened a birdcage and released two doves. As they escaped toward the open window, one defecated on Joe’s head.
Maggie elbowed him. “I told you. That was God.”
No, Joe thought, that was just a bird. And for that, he felt guiltier than he’d ever felt before.
Anna Zumbro
July 2014 | back-issues, poetry
I am reading secrets of yellow
tomato plants, studying life-lines
on their leaf-shaped palms.
Home from school the neighbor boy leans
over the fence. Asks about my day.
I’d tell him I found a lump
under my skin. I think it will end me.
Like a fly on meat
it’s hatched its eggs.
I’d tell him how my husband knew
a year ago, my mother three
decades before that.
I’d tell him but we’re done
talking. He hangs a thick arm
over the chain-linked fence.
Last week we admired our shadows
over cardboard guns held together
with rubber bands and silver
tape. He told me he’s an artist—
that sometimes he watches me
from his kitchen window.
I want to say that I’m an artist too
but the arrangement has turned
somehow, fast like a fire, or slow
like a leaf.
Tamra Carraher
Tamra Carraher has published two books of poems and illustrations for children titled PICTURE/BOOK and Bluefish Haiku and is currently exhibiting line drawings of poems at Bahdeebahdu in Philadelphia. Her poetry has been featured in the online literary journal Toe Good Poetry. She received an MFA from New England College in January 2014 and has worked as an Associate Editor for the Naugatuck River Review.
July 2014 | back-issues, poetry
I: Ascription
i ascribe meaning to moments
you: to dice and bones and chance
what did the tea leaves say this morning?
lies are coincident to actuality—
the bees are disappearing
do you take yours
with cream or sugar?
one scoop
or two?
II: i prayed a Novena
i prayed a Novena
you don’t come around much
anymore
squirrels are the least interesting
creatures in the yard.
i spend so much time waiting
water boils
the phone rings
the postman comes and goes
everything happens eventually,
says the praying mantis,
hungrily
III: Jicama stick salads
winter beaches
frozen sunset
ice chimes
tea, watered down more than it is already
cancer-survivor relatives
seekers of good fortune (read: lost change)
cinnamon jicama stick salads with maple syrup
and rye whiskey; French pressed coffee
cereal for dinner
midnight; spring-time shower trysts
walking. home—not a place, but
fingers grasping fingers
IV: on poems written in the middle of the night
he said, don’t
read too much
into all this
i’ll tell you
when you
need to know
most times,
i just like the way
the words sound together
C. L. Carol
C.L. Carol tries to be a good human. But, humans being humans, he’s known to fall short, stumble into a local haunt and spend time ruminating. Sometimes he writes. More often, he thinks. Diane Wakoski once likened one of his poems to Yeats, but the poem is lost and the story has now been relegated to fable. He lives in Northern Michigan with his wife, Emily, and their daughter, Berkleigh. Companion to cats. Friendly gentleman. Terrible golfer.
