The Weight of Violence

You’re in the pickup with Scotty B and buzzing with anticipation cause you’re about to score and this makes your skin tingle thinking about the rush of dopamine and potential for sudden violence that comes with every deal and to feed the synergy you reach for the volume on the stereo just as the song ends and the void of sound takes you back to the bar

where amid the neon and dinge of a dive turned trendy you caught the lean through the corner of your eye before the kiss between two guys who looked like college kids enjoying a night on-the-slum and unaware of the culture shift when you leave the sandstone and iron of Okie Yuppie U.

Your first instinct was fear so you scanned the bar while telling yourself this is Tulsa and waited for the slur you’ve heard so many times it has no impact anymore and your mind went back to the night you and Scotty B were good and lit and laughing and you placed a hand on the curve of his ribs in a manner that made his spine stiffen as he shrugged away and this instant had you at the brink of fight or flight until Scotty B pretended nothing happened and you let your fists uncurl.

This is Tulsa.  And you can’t understand the way things are changing because you know it never will for you with your line of descent traced through generations of Hank and Merle and Cash on vinyl and your father singing Garth’s ode with the bulls and blood and dust and mud and in the silence between songs you turn to Scotty B and twang out the drawl real nice when you tell him used to be they called this shit Horse back in the seventies and that’s the best name for a drug they ever was.

 

by Geoff Peck

Geoff Peck received his MFA from the University of Pittsburgh and is currently a PhD candidate at the University of North Dakota.  His fiction and poetry have appeared in over a dozen journals and he has been nominated for Best New American Poets after winning the Academy of American Poets Thomas McGrath Award.

Paul Lubenkov

Observations  In  Lieu  Of  An  Elegy

 

Scooter Monzingo is dead.

The weather is crisp, the streets

Are exceptionally clean.

His wife is amazed at how

Natural he looks, the way

His fingers gracefully mesh.

 

It is six o’clock.  In Rome,

In a cheap villa, a young

American housewife is

Seducing a gigolo.

She insists his name is Frank.

What an ugly word!  Franck thinks.

 

It is six o’clock.  Demure

Millie Hobbes is pawning her

Gramophone.  She has plans, big

Plans.  Someday her neighbors will

See her and say, Who would have

Thought it?  She can hardly wait.

 

It is six o’clock.  Rainstorms

Lash the coast of Uruguay.

In a crowded marketplace,

A slow-eyed senorita

Has begun to menstruate

For the first time.  People stare.

 

If he were alive today,

Scooter Monzingo would say

4,800 words,

Move 700 muscles,

Eat over 3 pounds of food,

And breathe.  Which is average.
 

The  Miracle

 

Who could ever imagine this breach

Of sun?  Not even the priests

Grazed by the moon and eager

To serve could say for sure.  Oh,

They fasted, wept, and prayed.  With

The passion of despair, they

Brought hundreds to the knife.  Lord,

The stench.  Baskets stuffed with soft

Steaming entrails.  But nowhere

Was an answer to be found.

Encouraged, then, by what they

Could not see, they counted up

Their blessings in disguise.  They

Danced, they sang, they fell back on

Tradition and, praising all

Such miracles of mystery,

They blessed the bloody fields.

 

by Paul Lubenkov

 

After a lengthy career as an executive with Eastman Kodak and Fuji Photo Film, I have returned full circle to my first post graduate job:  College Instructor.  Although it is certainly intimidating to return to the classroom, it is incredibly rewarding to be able to give back. Poems recently published and accepted for publication in The Sierra Nevada Review, The Stillwater Review, The Outrider Review, River Poets Journal, Falling Star Magazine, and The Tule Review.

Hoplophobia

A morbid fear of guns

whose array of co-morbidities

encompass

 

suppressed rage

post-traumatic stress disorder

delusional disorder

and panic disorder

 

this complex specific phobia

 

and avoidance

displacement

and transference

 

Or how else do hoplophobiacs

get from point A

to point B

 

without a gun permit

 

with a gun

without a firing mechanism

and without bullets

 

and the hallowed halls of Congress

clogged with lead?

 

by Patrick Theron Erickson

 

Patrick, a resident of Garland, Texas, a Tree City just south of Duck Creek, is a retired parish pastor put out to pasture himself, a former shepherd of sheep, a small flock with no sheep dog and no hang-dog expression. Secretariat is his mentor, though he has never been an achiever and has never gained on the competition. He resonates to a friend’s definition of change; though a bit dated with the advent of wi fi, it has the ring of truth to it: change coming at us a lot faster because you can punch a whole lot more, a whole lot faster down digital broadband “glass” fiber than an old copper co-axial landline cable. Of late Patrick’s work has appeared in Poetry Pacific; Red Fez; SubtleTea; The Oddville Press; Literary Juice; Poetry Quarterly; and will appear in the Fall 2015 issue of The Penwood Review.

Late Swimmer

In this late-autumn dusk

trees discard their leaves

like August’s junk lottery tickets.

She stands before the pool,

long since drained of water,

arms raised high, toes curled

over the edge of the diving board.

What makes her want to swim now?

Where was she all summer?

The quiet, clockwork stars

spin on their eternal vinyl sphere

as she closes her eyes, bends her knees.

She’s grown fat with sweet wine

she can no longer taste.

Her suit fits like a catcher’s mitt.

Grass grays in patches like stubble

on an old man’s face,

so she looks skyward, heavenward,

and launches herself into frigid night,

into emptiness cold as a new grave.

 

by James Valvis

James Valvis has placed poems or stories in Arts & Letters, Barrow Street, Ploughshares, River Styx, The Sun, and many others. His poetry was featured in Verse Daily. His fiction was chosen for Sundress Best of the Net. A former US Army soldier, he lives near Seattle.

 

John Sweet, Featured Author

church on fire

 

says i’m sick of

this shit

 

says tell me a story with a

happy ending for a change, and so i

paint her one of tanguy’s skies

instead

 

i paint her one of

kahlo’s visions

 

i drive over to the north side

to find her father, but

no one’s seen him in

twenty years

 

no one gives a fuck about

the sixties, no one gives a shit about

lennon’s murder, about reagan’s

death, about anything other

than money or power

 

the past is empty nostalgia, the

future a fever dream of possibility

and i sleep on the couch

all week

 

i consider apologizing for

things i haven’t done

 

in the end i keep quiet

and the infection spreads

 

the sun barely clears the hills to the

south on the coldest days of the year and

the air is thick with the smell of

gasoline, of metal grinding against

metal, and she says

             slow down

 

says that was the exit but the

trick is to get further away, out to

where the hills no longer have names,

out to where the trees rise up forever

dead from lakes of black water,

and the trick is to forget the children,

and the trick is to drive out past

even this, out past memory and

pain, but the truth is that the

trick always fails

 

the truth is that sex always

ends up feeling better

than love

 

isn’t this what you’ve been

waiting to hear me say?

 

 

upstate landscape w/ minor premonition

 

or all of those days spent

waiting for something to happen

 

all of those wasted hours caught

beneath a pale white sun, beneath a colorless sky,

and it was always early afternoon and it

was always the middle of november

 

powerlines stretched from dying

house to dying house and

empty trees never quite casting shadows

across barren lawns

 

the highway and the back roads

 

endless empty spaces packed tight w/

the ghosts of the past

 

nothing subtracted from

nothing

again and again

 

 

: :

 

the car out of gas on

fire at the edge of the highway the

swimmer alone late autumn or

early his wife missing

or sleeping

the children not yet imagined

and this car this wasteland this

all barren fields and powerlines all

empty stretches of interstate

mountains in the distance

and a man you might have

been always swimming

towards them

 

 

imaginary poem while waiting for rain

 

but this is only the day of

angels and we are only cities on fire

 

we are in the car for eight hours straight,

up and down side streets,

scoring and then using and then looking to score again and

what we smell like, i’d guess, is

slow meaningless death

 

what we believe in are better gods

or no gods at all

and the radio is tuned in to neverending static on the

morning your husband walks out the door

 

still gone four days later,

fucking someone’s sister in a leaky trailer and

together they are only a monotonous story with a

predictable ending

 

a suicide that drags on for seven years

 

and her children sit and wait outside the

bedroom door, and this boy no one knows is found

alongside the interstate, raped and beaten and dead,

eyes gouged out, coat hanger wrapped

tight around his throat

 

fourth of july in this

age of casual oblivion

 

religion forced down your throat and

deep up into your ass and whoever tells you that

voting will bring about change is a liar

 

power will always be power and poverty a crime and

we have been walking lost through this forest

for days now or for a month or maybe for

half our wasted lives

 

i have told you i love you and i have

told you i hate you and

neither one is anywhere near the truth

 

i have tasted your sweat and i have

drunk your blood and i have

offered you mine and

we are dying stars in broad daylight

 

we are dirty needles on piss-stained floors

 

the truth sounds better as a metaphor and then

better still as a lie and the windows here

are all broken, the walls filled with

dead and dying bees

 

end of july

 

walk out the door and drive through

100 miles of nothing and then

100 more and then start to see a pattern

 

believe only in what you can hold

 

fall asleep at the highway’s edge beneath

a relentless sun and

what the fuck were you thinking,

growing up, starting a family?

 

what the fuck were you

thinking, giving yourself away?

 

bought a house with no roof, no walls,

water in the basement

 

pulled the plug on your father

 

spoke quietly about your grandmother’s suicide

in a roomful of strangers and none of them

listened and why would they?

 

this is the 21st century

 

age of emotional famine

 

age of indifference

 

wake up in the middle of frozen lake in

early february with a head full of

broken glass and think about summer

 

try to remember how you

ended up here

 

open your eyes for once in your life

 

by John Sweet

 

john sweet, b. 1968.opposed to organized religion and to political parties.  ideologies in general, altho he DOES have a soft spot for the concepts of surrealism and post-punk.  30 years spent wrestling w/ the idea of writing as catharsis.  most recent collections are THE CENTURY OF DREAMING MONSTERS (2014 Lummox Press) and A NATION OF ASSHOLES W/ GUNS 2015 Scars Publications, e-chap).

Rose Mary Boehm

Enlightenment in the Parking Lot

 

You curl up in the corner of the washroom

without concern about the urine on the floor

 

and you hear hot voices and cool riffs

leave through the door of the village barn

 

where they celebrate your getting hitched

to husband number three. While you were pensive

 

and wondered, he stumbled drunk

into your best friend holding on to her tits

 

to soften his fall. You lick salt and hug yourself

not caring about the bruises, then you lift

 

yourself, slowly, because your body is heavy,

and you walk out unseen through the back entrance.

 

You kick off your heels, your head clears some

and when you get to the parking lot

 

you’re not sure where you’ll be driving,

but you know you won’t die again.

 

 

imperfect recall

 

in the car whistling

shrieking metal on metal

big woman shuffles

a soprano voice and

sharp cuts crystal

shatters on flagstone

I have insurance

abandoned fields fierce

orange mushrooms push

open the wound on a fallen trunk

old man furtively pisses

out old afflictions mosquitoes

throng and settle on

the heat coming off me

smears of blood on my cage

suppose it’s mine

then it was summer

night air police sirens

one-hundred-and-seven days

needed to return

now bare trees smeared

glass brittle with frost

tattered images

 

by Rose Mary Boehm

A German-born UK national, Rose Mary Boehm lives and works in Lima, Peru. Author of two novels and a poetry collection (TANGENTS) published in 2011 in the UK, well over 100 of her poems have appeared or are forthcoming in a good two dozen US poetry reviews as well as some print anthologies, and Diane Lockward’s The Crafty Poet. She won third price in in the 2009 Margaret Reid Poetry Contest for Traditional Verse (US), was semi-finalist in the Naugatuck poetry contest 2012/13 and has been a finalist in several GR contests, winning it in October 2014.