Dawson Steeber

Are You Coming Back

Last night I tossed and turned, the night

torn mad with slamming doors and clanging radiators.

I threw pillows and covers all over

the room, woke in a terrible cold sweat.

I walked to the kitchen gingerly, feeling

the swollen, sore pad of my foot where I

picked up that barbed sliver of floorboard

like a prison shank. How sweet,

thinking about that splinter

and the way you came to me then, bent

to your knees, and pulled it out.

The kitchen was dark, the sink full of dirty plates.

I opened the refrigerator door,

the light illuminating everything. I pulled

the half drunken quart bottle from the door,

unscrewed the cap, and inhaled

the miasma

of tired, flat beer.

It smells so much better

on your breath, tastes better

on your mouth. I twisted

the cap back on, set the bottle in the door

and let it fall shut. Everything was dark

again. I lumbered to the sunroom and sat

in the red leather chair where you fold yourself

behind half-smoked cigarettes.

The leather was cold as was the streetlight

shining across the floor where windblown

ashes scuppered into dark corners

like paper thin insects. I sat

the rest of the night on the mattress

in the living room, washed in the glow of the TV,

a pair of pliers in one hand,

needle nose in the other, fixing

the bracelet that broke in the dining room

that night I tried to link it round your wrist.

It’s fixed now. Are you

coming back for it?

 

Dawson Steeber

Dawson Steeber is a union carpenter working, reading, and writing in Akron, Ohio. His poems and fiction can be found in Thank You For Swallowing, Pink Disco, Halfway Down the Stairs, CC&D, and elsewhere.

Michael Horton

Ping Pong

The house was a gift—picture perfect weekend luxury on the lake. From their three daughters. They were all doing well, money wasn’t a hurdle, and they wanted to show their parents a good time.

Just relax.

Sit on the dock.

Hold hands, the oldest adds.

They’d become concerned.

In the cathedral-ceiling living room, the fireplace rose in a striking arrangement of natural stone. An island as big as a pickup truck filled the kitchen. Everything was fully stocked. He looks for the coffee maker. She checks for milk. Next a master suite with glass doors to a private deck, the bathroom crowd-sized with walk-in shower, tub with jets, warming towel bars, a heated floor. Upstairs a second-floor balcony overlooks the living room and out to the glittering lake through the two-story window wall. They pause to look without speaking. They stand several inches apart.

More bedrooms, bathrooms, balconies overlooking the lake. Every piece of furniture was hand-crafted, surfaces polished to a finish like clear water. A dream house from some dream life.

* * *

The ping pong table in the walkout basement brings them to a standstill.

She rests her fingers on the scuffed green top. Do you remember?

He crosses to the table. Two paddles with blue rubber-nibbed faces rest on opposite ends of the table, the ball tucked under the nearest.

You used to win, he says, picking up the paddle.

Only at first.

He smiles, shakes his head, remembering. He picks up the paddle wagging it back and forth.

She circles the table. The panorama of the lake is framed in glass doors behind her. She picks up the other paddle.

Lovely hands. Even now, he thinks she has lovely hands.

He picks up the ball, hollow, feeling fragile as a blown egg.

Shall we give it a try?

Now she smiles.

I don’t know if I can—it’s been too long.

He laughs. Very carefully he taps the ball to her. She catches it in her hand and holds it a moment, staring down at it. Then taps it back with equal care. He moves to return it. It goes over his paddle and bounces across the floor.

A little rusty, he says, returning to his side. She moves slightly, shifting foot to foot.

Ready?

As though tapping glass, he serves. Stepping sideways she taps it back. His smile broadens. This time his paddle finds the ball, returns it.

It’s a moment of triumph. Look what they have done! She returns it.

The sound takes on a natural tick tock rhythm.

They focus on keeping the rhythm, the mutual cadence of pass and return. They concentrate, hitting the ball so it is an easy pass for the other to return. Some go wide, and they step quickly reaching out. It is coming back to them.

Serious now, both smiling, almost holding their breath.

It has been so long. So much has come between.

They concentrate.

They keep it going.

 

Michael Horton

Michael has worked as a bookmobile librarian, McDonald’s shift manager, factory worker in a rubber parts plant, prep cook, men’s dormitory janitor, purchasing agent, and IT guy—but writing is what he does. His work has appeared in the Alaska Quarterly Review, Glimmer Train, and Raleigh Review, among others. Stories were nominated for “Best of the Net” and Pushcart Prize. He is an alumnus of the Sewanee Writers Conference, where he learned from the remarkable Tony Earley and Alice McDermott.

Amy Agape

If You Were There

If you were there, you surely would have noticed the scarlet slash cleaving the soft brown fuzz. Her roly-poly-curved shrunken shape. White sheets, once crisp, now softened by sweat. Darkened room illuminated regularly for blood draws, IV exchanges.

You would have heard her on the phone. Do you have avocados? Maybe bring one of those. And toast? Black beans too, those might work. Oh, a wheat tortilla and some grilled chicken. I can make a little taco. Maybe a bite of that will stay down. Ice cream, too, please, sometimes that’s okay. Something cold to drink – maybe Pepsi? No, Sprite.

Then, turning to me, “Can you believe it? My mom and sisters took my daughter. They were supposed to pick up pizza, bring it back here to eat with me. That would have been nice, right? They just texted that they are coming later, after they’ve finished eating. Why couldn’t they just eat here with me? Now I’m starving, and it may be too late to be able to hold anything down. That’s not nice of them, is it?”

You would have witnessed a woman arriving with a stack of cards. “You’ve got lots to do, Sis. I planned for all the birthdays, the graduations, even their weddings.” Maybe you would have recognized appropriation disguised as altruism.

You likely would have noted the numbers scattered throughout her questions. Will I be here 2 months from now? Can you believe the nurses have to wear gowns and gloves to hand me this 1 little pill? What should I tell my 3 children? Do you think they realize I may only have 14 days to live?

You never would have noticed:

A scar, mollified by years, a kind of cleavage under my blouse

Me alone in the bed, my family out for burgers

Suppressed shame that I was unable to write letters to my kids like the dying mom on Oprah

The newspaper clipping shared by a friend – a grief camp for kids with dead parents

My own numbers: 2 weeks to live; 12 previous cases, all diagnosed by autopsy; 3 major surgeries and dozens of procedures; 25 bonus years

An infant son learning to walk in my hospital room

His younger sister, not even arrived by that hospital room but present for all the following ones with the new scars and new guilt and new hope and new joy

 

You may have noticed me grab her hand, look into her eyes, whisper, “I’m here.”

 

Amy Agape

Amy Agape, PhD, provides spiritual companionship to hospitalized individuals and their families. This work, rooted in her own experience with a rare illness, invites her to listen deeply to others’ stories and explore the ways they interweave with her own. Amy dreams of a world where all people experience the profound blessing of being companioned with loving presence. She intends to spend the remainder of her days helping to create that world.

Jamey Hecht

Perv Circus

The annual Perv Circus celebrated its first decade with a huge bash at the Grand Palace Hotel. Nobody could have brought it off with more panache or bigger profits than Charlie Pinkhaus, known to his entourage as “The Founder.” Charlie knew hundreds of the right sort of people for his Circus: men and women who were loaded with liquid cash; troubled enough to need nearly constant stimulation; and unlikely to blow the whistle on the dark shenanigans he orchestrated, every June, within the private chambers of his own hotel chain’s flagship location. The Grand Palace Hotel was a maze of dark walnut panels twenty-two feet high. Most of the walls were crowded with canvasses, photographs in frames, textiles, tiles, and objects somebody had insisted were art, so they were.

Senators and bankers, writers and high fashion people, actors and sex workers—every sort from every part of the world eventually hit the Perv Circus. One night drew two astronomers and a veterinarian. And lonesome Charlie’s favorite: a recently civilized barbarian.

 

Jamey Hecht

Jamey Hecht, PhD, PsyD, LMFT, is a psychoanalyst in private practice in Brooklyn, NY. His two poetry books to date are Limousine, Midnight Blue: Fifty Frames from the Zapruder Film (Red Hen Press, 2009), and Dodo Feathers: Poems 1989-2019 (IPB, 2019). His other three books are about Plato, Sophocles, and Homer. Hecht’s poems, fiction, and scholarship have appeared in two dozen periodicals, including American Short Fiction, Black Warrior Review, Massachusetts Review, Arion, Rattle, The Pinch, English Literary History, The 16th Century Journal, American Imago, and the Journal of the American Psychoanalytic Association. jameyhechtauthor.com

Steve Deutsch

After,

 

we took

the long way

home.

 

As if such

a simple act

might flummox fate.

 

We are

a good people.

We bury our dead

 

and help

the maimed

to cross the road.

 

Yet the image

persists.

One careless step

 

along

the poorly

cobbled avenue,

 

and Atropos

snips

the thread.

 

Steve Deutsch

Steve Deutsch is the poetry editor of Centered Magazine and was the first poet in residence at the Bellefonte Art Museum. He has been nominated for the Pushcart Prize and the Best of the Net Prize multiple times. He has six volumes of Poetry. One, Brooklyn, won the Sinclair Poetry Prize.

Kyle Selley

Material Landscape - Kyle Selley

Material Landscape

Scale Invariant - Kyle Selley

Scale Invariant

Kyle Selley

Kyle Selley draws with explosive residue. Explosions and their indexical marks are naturally celestial, producing tactile residue that echoes stellar formations. Across scales, he’s found patterns of residual dust, energy radiating outward, order surfacing through chaos, and fractals emerging. Combustible material inscribes scale-invariant traces. He guides it, but this medium expands mark-making beyond what his hand can do. There’s tension between control and volatile chance, between what he intends and what the material insists on. Chaos theory and emergence theory describe principles that govern supernovae and fireworks alike. The work collapses cosmic distances to a human scale, making stellar nebulae accessible for close investigation—residue as primary content. Selley reframes the explosion as contemplative echoes rather than spectacle. What was cosmic becomes intimate. The viewer sits inches from what resembles light-years, examining the same dust and patterns that govern stellar birth.

Kimm Brockett Stammen

Waves

 

The ship wasn’t rocking, still there was a sensation of lilting movement,

of repeated unbalancing and rebalancing,

as she leaned over the railing and reached out to the waves far below.

 

The instant before he approached, she felt that someone would approach.

 

He, on the other hand, as he said later, barely knew what was happening, before, during or after.

 

Their spouses were generally the planners.

Like all their vacations, her husband and his wife had arranged the cruise.

Their spouses didn’t plan this.

 

The four of them met at horse shoes on the second day, and since then had done much together: dined on huge Scampi, explored overrun harbor towns, laughed sparsely at a comedy show. A continent separated the two couples, but attitude and circumstance made them compatible, and also, as is always the case with compatibility: values. They believed in love and loyalty, and had thought the two as complementary as sea and sky, past and future.  On each of their monogamies depended entire infrastructures of children, families, careers, houses, investments, vacations, pets, landscapings, plans.

 

“Beautiful,” he said as he leant next to her against the railing.

And she knew he meant the evening and the ocean,

the breeze and the sensation of floating far from the tethering land—

but she also knew, or hoped, or knew what was meant by her hoping, that he meant her.

 

They fell in love.

They fell in love and they loved.

They fell in love and they loved and there seemed to be no choice at all.

 

Is there ever?

 

Ten years later, in a hotel in a midwestern city, where they could each stop over occasionally on the way to elsewhere, they were naked together. Even as memory, their nakedness always stunned: a green flash of recognition at sunset or sunrise; a breech from ocean sleep; a perpetual instant of waking.  They talked over once and again all their inevitable subjects: commitment, hopelessness, incongruence, boat-rocking. How their infrastructures—teens and young adults, aging parents, retirements, downsizings, dividends, vacations, small mounds interspersed in their landscapes, more plans—continued, and yet they two who supported those infrastructures were infinitely different. Or perhaps not. Perhaps they been these people all along, these awful people, and had just needed each other to learn it.

 

“It’s time,” she said, and he knew before she said it that she would say it.

 

She, on the other hand, barely knew what she was saying.

 

Still, they took other cruises, there were other lilting sensations, sometimes they reached out, or remembered reaching out, or sensed that they would—unbalancing and rebalanced—reach out from their opposite sides of the continent, to the waves.

 

Kimm Brockett Stammen

Kimm Brockett Stammen’s story collection, In a Country Whose Language I Have Never Mastered, was a finalist for the Iron Horse Book Contest and the 2022 Eludia Award. Her writings have appeared or are forthcoming in Chautauqua, december, CARVE, Pembroke, Prime Number, and over thirty other literary magazines, and her work has been nominated for Pushcart, Best Short Fiction, and Best Microfiction anthologies. She holds an MFA from the Naslund-Mann Graduate School of Creative and Professional Writing at Spalding University. kimmbrockettstammen.wordpress.com

Emma Sywyj

Wall & Window, China - Emma Sywyj

Wall & Window, China

 View of Miranda, Italy - Emma Sywyj


View of Miranda, Italy

Emma Sywyj

Emma Sywyj is an award-winning artist and photographer who has been creating art for twenty years. For five of those years, she was based in London, studying photography at Camberwell College of Arts, UAL. From there, she received a BA in Photography and a Foundation Diploma in Art & Design. She has exhibited her artwork internationally in the US (New York, LA), at Art Basel Miami & San Francisco, and in Athens and Budapest. She has also exhibited nationally in the UK, including in London. She has been published in several UK art magazines and international journals, and has exhibited her video artwork in galleries & film festivals worldwide.

Robert Miner

The general’s family selects an earth spirit for his mausoleum

Tang Dynasty, China

 May I say you bring great honor to the artisans of our studio by seeking our earth spirits for the general’s tomb?

The widow, sitting on a stone bench with her two sons, nodded solemnly at the ceramic workshop director.

The general is much admired as a fierce defender of the empire. The story of how he led the charge of his outnumbered troops against the rebel army will be passed down from generation to generation. Who can help but be thrilled by the way he urged his steed forward alone against the enemy line, slashing his way through stunned warriors, straight for the opposing general? One must marvel at his audacity and his courage as he vanquished the enemy’s leader, chopped off his head, tied it to his horse’s mane and rode along the front lines, terrifying the enemy and rallying his men to a bloody and glorious victory.

The widow turned pale. The older son gave a slight cough.

My apologies. Of course, you would prefer in this time to remember the general as the loving and devoted father and husband I am sure he was when not on the battlefield.

The widow stared down at her feet.

May I show you a few examples of earth spirits created by our artisans? Our grave-quelling spirits stand guard at the entrances of the tombs of hundreds of the honored dead, the first choice of emperors and noblemen. As you can see, our statues are finished with tri-colored Sancai glaze and come in many designs to ward off malevolent spirts. Our earth spirits combine the features of numerous animals into a figure to inspire fear in any enemy – tiger fangs, eagle talons, dragon tails. A warrior like the general with a lifetime of heroic deeds must have left many enemies defeated and broken. I fear their spirits could seek revenge in the afterlife. We must prevent these spirits from disturbing the peace of

the general so he will be a source of blessing and good fortune to what we all wish to be many generations of descendants.

The two sons nodded vigorously.

When selecting a design, it is important to remember our figures do more than protect against malevolent spirits getting in – they also prevent the spirit of the departed from getting out.

The widow drew a sharp breath.

Keep in mind that each of us has two souls. The soul that embodies our intellect, our spiritual self, ascends into the heavens. Our other soul, the one that animates our bodies, fuels our emotions, drives our earthly desires, stays with the body. Our earth spirits are crafted to keep these souls from leaving their tombs and walking the earth, re-visiting where they once lived and drawing near those with whom their lives intertwined.

The younger son and the widow looked at each other with alarm.

May I presume to suggest you consider our strongest and most fearsome figure? It is a little more costly, but it is the most powerful of all our earth spirits. I believe it befits a man of the general’s character and reputation. It has three horns growing from its head, the snout and fangs of a boar, and muscular arms and legs that end in deadly claws. A venomous snake encircles its arm. And, its entire body is engulfed in flames. The final touch is that it stands astride the body of a defeated monster subdued by its powers. I believe such an earth spirit will quell any disturbance and allow the general to sleep in the peace he deserves and for which you pray.

The older son leaned forward. Yes, our family will take two of those.

Robert Miner

Robert Miner is a Houston-based writer. He is a former political consultant who works in government affairs on energy policy. Follow him @robertminerpoetry on Instagram.

Fabio Sassi

Frankie - Fabio Sassi

Frankie

Fabio Sassi

Fabio Sassi creates photographs and acrylics using materials considered worthless by the mainstream. He often puts a quirky twist on his subjects or employs an unusual perspective that offers a fresh angle. Fabio lives in Bologna, Italy, and his work can be viewed at www.fabiosassi.foliohd.com

Grace Lynn

My Muse is Growing Up

My muse wears prescription glasses,

so she’ll never see

 

beyond the village

with its walled-in acres

 

of poolside loungers.

Plus, she quit her diet,

 

so her diaphragm gags her

esophagus and larynx.

 

I’ll find another voice

preparing to leave somewhere.

 

Starlings nest in her wool mouth,
under her tongue knots of familiar

 

as the juniper bush

bends her fingers to catch the night.

 

I call this girl my neighborhood.

 

Fingers like ten puny,

black summers waiting in the sky.

 

She skips into the juniper bush,

to where a rainbow saddles the alps.

 

She walks further into the horizon,

fall in the air and rain on its way

 

and who knows, like her,

the different smells of the grownups’ homes

 

preparing to bake butterscotch cookies

or braid the sabbath dough.

 

I call this girl my neighborhood.

 

Her walkie talkie is morosely

static in the tropical twilight.

 

She releases me from social media.

She holds onto the darkness,

 

believes like wildfire

in frizzy-hair-like echoes.

 

If she wades deeper, silences of darkness become
windows into waves,

 

and she and only she can see

the reclusive moon of doom imprinted

 

with ragtag teeth coughed up by the dog.

I’ll have to get her training bras and tampons.

 

I’ll still call this girl my neighborhood.

 

Warn her to put her guard up,
so she can make it to

 

the suburb stars of love

before we bury our body of time.

 

Grace Lynn

Grace Lynn is an emerging painter who lives with a chronic illness. Her work explores the intersections between faith, the natural world, art, and the body. In her spare time, Grace enjoys listening to Bob Dylan, reading suspense novels, and investigating absurd angles of art history.

Richard Holinger

Diapers

In rural northern Illinois northwest of Chicago, a raised, pressed, gray gravel path, long ago a railroad track, runs straight for miles, bordered by trees. On one side, farmers harvest their cornfields, green John Deere combines and tractors stirring up more dust than smoke from a forest fire. On the other side, houses on two-acre lots show off manicured, landscaped backyards with two and three-story mansions with castle-like turrets and floor-to-ceiling windows.

Walking through this shadowy tunnel one day, I meet Blackjack, a 14-year-old deaf, half-blind black lab. The man walking him, Mike, looks like Hemingway in his later, Ketchum years. He tells me he is a retired contractor.

I am strolling our family’s miniature poodle, a dog rescued when ten-years-old, now lying wrapped in blankets in a baby carriage because, at 18, partially deaf and mostly blind, she no longer walks.

Like aging men do, we start talking general aches—physical and familial—and how we handle them, then graduate to specific body parts. I brag two replaced hips, he a prostate.

“The friends of mine who had them taken out all wear diapers today,” Mike says, his voice low, gravelly. “Me, I got nuclear implants. They put in radioactive seeds that kill the cancer. They said I had eight years. That was back in 1998, more’n twenty years ago.”

Before surgery, Mike asked his doctor, “Will I still be able to get it up?”

“I’m not a miracle-worker,” his oncologist answered. “Can you get it up now?”

I tell him when eight or nine-years-old, I had to tap twice with the first two fingers of my left hand each light pole passed when walking to my elementary school on Dearborn Place or else something horrific beyond imagining would befall me.

I never missed touching one. Maybe I was afraid each would collapse if not tapped.

After one or two more serendipitous meetings, I no longer met Mike and Blackjack. Then Summer died. Occasionally I walked the Great Western Trail thinking I’d run into Mike, most likely alone. I looked forward to seeing him. After many strolls, no sign of him or his dog, I pretty much stopped walking there. Maybe he, like Blackjack, was no longer able to make it out, his prostate issues finally catching up to him.

The town we lived in bought a farm with a prairie growing an infinite number of wildflowers, a marsh where egrets and herons gathered, and multiple pairs of bluebird houses. I would have loved to walk it with Mike. Why hadn’t I asked for his contact information? Every time we met I left after saying goodbye thinking I’d see him next time when we would exchange phone numbers or emails, when more convenient, when we had more time.

Now I step onto the gravel trail, look up and down the shady path, see one bike rider in the distance, know it’s not Mike, know I won’t see him today, and know I won’t see him again, ever.

 

Richard Holinger

Richard Holinger’s work has recently appeared in Chautauqua, SIR, Cleaver, Whitefish Review, Cutleaf, and elsewhere. Nominations include the Pushcart Prize (5), Best of the Net, Best Small Fictions, and Best Microfiction 2025, including the latter. Books include North of Crivitz (poetry) and Kangaroo Rabbits and Galvanized Fences (essays). His 2025 poetry chapbook, Down from the Sycamores, is available from www.finishinglinepress.com, and a short fiction collection, Unimaginable Things, is forthcoming from Main Street Rag Publications. He holds a doctorate in creative writing from UIC, taught high school and community college English for decades, and lives in rural northern Illinois.